Silent Library

amazingly, it's 9.30am in CL and the computer terminals r esp peaceful. ie, no hawks eyeing at ppl to finish their stuff faster. so i took the liberty to blog again, under the possibility of being caught (w no consequences, of cos) using the pc for personal stuff.

well, it's a matter of dd and ss... =P

aniwaes, shall eleborate on some things... dat i couldn't do for the past few days.

rem the day when i saw a lot of old frens? it was like, i onli mentioned 4 and i said it's a lot. haha... aniwaes, i missed out aiping, which was a case of hi-bye. she sure looked busy tho, i suppose preparing for her honours bah... y so pia??

and then saw this gal in the canteen juz now. hmm... i muz say i haf a SUPER soft spot for gals who dun look so ok. no... i dun mean gals who look like ruhua or xu chun mei... but gals who r so plain and orh-bit + orh-biang.

remembered one time in sec sch when i saw this woman in bm kfc. she looked like abigail, except dat abigail wasn't on tv dat time. so it was either abigail lookalike or abigail-b4-tv. aniwaes, this woman looked so frugal and was digging her purse to find changes. dunno leh... this scene juz seem so _______ (couldn't tink of appropriate adj) and it was lodged in my head till now.

ok... a little on the gal. she was super plain, 'dolly-hair' (wa-wa tou), be-spectacled and the dress sense was rather retro... in the orh-bit way lah. so, she was having yong tau foo w lots of soup... which, i dunno how, she spilled over her dress.

ouch! so heart wrenching.

i mean, i feel (i put myself in other ppl's shoes, but i dun feel for others. i put myself in other's shoes and feel wat I feel according to my set of rules) loser-ly to b her. life will b bleak... and then some xia-suay stuff muz happen. it's like 'Plain Gal's Series of Unfortunate Events'. aiyah... i juz felt bad lah.

(tink along this line...) ppl feel heart wrenching seeing needy ppl suffering. i feel the same, for such ppl. the fact dat i can make this analogy is cos i feel the same in both cases, and this is juz a sidetrack. lol

dwell a bit more, cos i dun tink i expressed myself enuf, but... also dun tink i can elaborate even more. okok... i suppose there's this fear in me dat i'll become some plain (ugly) guy w a sad life. in addition to my present loser-ly life. so... the presence of some ppl in the vicinity was scary. i'm afraid to look at a possibility of myself turning dat way.

i wanted to use the word 'nightmare', tho i dun tink it was appropriate. aniwaes, tok abt nightmare... dat nite, i 4got to put my amulet under my pillow and i had another nightmare. thriller this time.

someone was murdered and then i returned to the morgue (it wasn't an 'official' morgue, but it was the place where the body was left) at nite (so thriller'ly rite?). and yar... i 'realized' who the killer was... and she was rite outside the door. in the moment of panic, i woke up. haiz... couldn't sleep 4 half an hr...

haha... dat's all. more ppl coming in. hafta go chope my seat liaoz. =P